I downloaded TikTok...and Deleted It.

I’ve learned a lot about myself in less than 24 hours.

Last night, I downloaded TikTok. If you’ve haven’t heard of TikTok, it’s a popular app thanks to attractive model-like teenagers who lip-sync and dance to popular songs. Nothing new, right?

I dismissed it as a trend that wouldn’t amount to anything, but after being swarmed with information on how eighteen-year-olds are now millionaires I started to consider downloading the app (I know, I know I’m all about that $$$).

I’ve also been helping my former skating coach by teaching ballroom/Zumba to her students. In the middle of the lesson, they started swarming me with questions about TikTok.

“Do you have TikTok?”

“You should get a TikTok!”

“You could be TikTok famous!”

Ever since the app launched, so many people have suggested I should upload my dance videos to TikTok to “get famous.” So I said what the hell, and downloaded the app.

I ended up posting a tutting combo that I taught the girls earlier that day. It was actually pretty stressful to film. I didn’t realize you could pause and cut, so I was adamant about doing it flawlessly in one take. My marketing brain told me to immediately post it on Instagram and Snapchat, to spread the word that I have now joined the ranks of TikTok fame-crazed teens.

I waited.

I hate this feeling more than anything else—that feeling when you post and then you start questioning if it was a “worthy” post, if you should take it down, etc. etc. etc. This happens all the time when I upload YouTube videos and blog posts! I hate it!

I distracted myself with more episodes of “Kim’s Convenience” on Netflix (15/10 recommend by the way), and went to sleep.

This morning, I woke up feeling terrible. And it’s not because of the junk food I ate last night—all I could think about was TikTok. It disgusted me--I had other things to do! I had to teach Zumba (for like the 8th time this week)! Why was I so fixated on this app, fixated on getting validation?

I deleted the app. Immediately, a wave of relief swept over me. I felt much better writing a blog post about why this experience didn’t work out than having to dance on TikTok.

Why you may ask? Two reasons:

1) Apps like TikTok and musical.ly (remember those days?) have popularized the idea of lip-syncing to look “cute.” I cannot simply act like I lost several brain cells and start lip-syncing and pouting my lips! No shade to anyone who loves that, by the way. My TikTok video proves that I can do it, but just because I can doesn’t mean I should. I can act like I’m a cool hip teen and purse my lips and all, but I can’t do it without questioning my sanity for the next 24 hours.

2) It’s exhausting. I already have enough social media to worry about, from YouTube to Instagram to Pinterest... TikTok just adds more work to my plate, and for what? To be hip with the kids? No thank you—I’d rather update my blog and Pinterest like the old lady I am!

So long story short, I’ve learned my lesson: TikTok isn’t for me.

Thank you for coming to my TedTalk (not my TikTok)! I hope you have a wonderful day, and if TikTok is your thing, I hope you have better luck than I did!



P.S. I’m keeping the video up on Instagram. To commemorate this self-discovery ;)

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